*she bursts into laughter* shes laughing so hard her eyes are watery. Shes laughing because shes tired of crying and everything, absolutely everything seems so hilariously against her that she can't help but laugh on herself, on her fate and on all that is happening to her. She pauses to think "pehle ati thi haal-e-dil pe hanssi, ab har baat pe ati hai" and this made her smile even more broadly, thinking about the only other person who would be smiling at this idea, but no! not anymore! Shes not gonna hurt herself anymore, she not gonna bother about anything anymore, "I mean honestly! Why the hell should I storm my brains when the other person is proving out to be so cold and so indifferent? and what was it again? "I was busy all along." Sure you were busy, even i don't have all the time in the world to sit around and trouble myself over these things (though it was proving to be pretty difficult to lie to herself because deep down inside she knows well that, it was the only thing she did all the time, while he was away) Yea so thats about it - I don't care anymore"
Shes broken as hell "It was only a freakin word, you could've said it! It would have wasted no breaths of yours! Just a small 5 letter word of affection! What harm would that have done except putting a mere smile on the lips of the woman you apparently love? or simply given her hope?" and then on the spur of the moment it struck her, like a ray of sun making its way through the tiniest of the cracks in the woods and enlightening everything that lies beyond; hope is the last thing she should be carrying with her in this matter, when there is no practical possibility of her beautiful beautiful fantasy to turn into reality as yet, and the less she hopes the less it'll hurt her, so that was the only reason why he held back and hurt himself - of course what could be a punishment worse for a poet to not express his poem with enchanting words - and he took this torment upon himself to ease her suffering?.. She helplessly fell of him all over again with affection ten times stronger.
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