The Imperfect Rose

Last night I had a dream. I dreamt that I was in a garden, beautifully lush garden of green and red. Red being the roses, bright, like drenched in thick blood. Now, anyone who hears this would be inclined to think it was a good dream, a happy one but the complication follows. I was not satisfied. I was frustrated, deeply annoyed. I was so irritated that I was losing interest in life altogether. I wanted to leave there; I either wanted what I so desired or I wanted to give it all up, a deliberate, stubborn bipolar idea. The very obstinate reason of my annoyance was, “perfection”. I could not find the perfect rose.

I touched a few buds here and a few bushed there, I almost plucked a rather ripped flower but then I didn't. The garden was like a maze and searched tirelessly all over the place but to no avail. The one I had in mind was just not in sight. I knew it was there somewhere, it absolutely had to be but behind a veil I could not penetrate.. yet.

Now, what strucks the mind the most is the rational understanding that perfection does not exist, we as we are here in the inevitable perishing world are the earthly reflection of our heavenly forms, the people, the birds and everything else; if we strive for perfection we will go thirsty.

What is wrong is to have a mental image of “how it ‘should’ be” which is a very idealistic and therefore non-realistic image of things. You cannot beat yourself up on how things should be rather accept how things are, try to change then to suit your taste and if they don’t, well, accept things as they are. Most importantly accept people as they are. Love them as they are; which is not to say that they should not improve or try to improve others for better but firstly not by manipulation; secondly, not something they actually like about themselves; lastly not because it’s something you can’t deal with because you absolutely must not try to change people to your taste, rather if you try to change them at all, let it for their good, not the good that is your good, but what is genuinely good for them, regardless of your existence.

“Perfection” is fantasy. The only perfection is The Lord God Almighty and the prove of that is the fact that he has repeatedly stated in his verses that he will forgive us if we shall ask for it because he know we had sinned from the beginning of time and that we will continue to the end of times. I believe that is the best and the only example of perfection, to accept that nothing is perfect.

So the veil will lift, I will come across my perfect rose once I understand that it is perfect in all it's flaw and glory, only then will I cherish it. Only then will it be perfect.