My dear, my dear..

My dear, my dear

I'm right here

under the sky and close to you

now shut you eyes and feel me through

let me brace, let me tend

your form and soul, I shall mend

My Luv, my luv

I have you here

resting at my bosom, safe in my arms

free of any bounds and free of all the fears

I shall give you all my bloom

that all your seasons be halcyoned

My sweet, my sweet

I am forever close to you

to kiss you when you wanna be loved

to nod when you wanna be approved

I shall take you by the hand

past highs-and-lows till the end

My strong, my strong

I need your strength

this rain remind that sky may be dark

you shall walk us through and i'll be the spark

you need not worry, you must not fall

hold my hand and stand tall

My amor, my amor

we are boundary less

I'm here, I'm near

I shall catch each of your tear

I'm with you in everything you sought

I'm here my luv, even when I'm not..

- Ms.Shehab

Tear

Na yun tabah kar mujhe

Na ese tou juda kar mujhe

Wahan ho ankh pur-numm

Aur na mile daman-e-tar mujhe

Ye do kadam hain ke mit-te nhi

Ke paar hon, mile ghar mujhe

Kis kadar hai shadeed justuju

tou kyun na dikhe wo dar mujhe

khamoshi main guzara hai jo waqt

Lage jese ek umr mujhe

Ab ke toot raha hai zabt

Ab tou aghosh main bhar mujhe

- Ms.Shehab

Two Things

I once read, “One can do anything if he really wants to.”

I have lived my life believing this lie, but trust me you all, it is not as true as it seems. Yes, you should put your 100 percent in what you believe, in what you believe is right and worthy of it but there is no guarantee that you'll actually be able to do it or that you'll reap any fruit out of it because like I always say, life doesn't provide any guarantees or warranties. There are two things one must keep in mind. First, you are only a reflection of God, not God himself, so do not try to play the God, 'cause you can't. There are things that are in your control and there are things that aren't so don't flatter yourself by trying to take everything in your hand believing that you can handle it all, because you cannot. Period. At times, though, you may, but also at times you may not so keep both the possibility in your mind. Put in your complete effort and then leave the matter in the Almighty One's hands, and believe you me he is greater than your greatest imagination, thus can handle it all and once you have left all your precious effort in the safest hands then for your own mental stability's sake, relax! rather than worrying your brains out on something that you no longer have any control over. Don’t torment yourself by pushing yourself over the edge. Cut yourself some slack. God himself said that he does not put burden upon a person beyond his level of tolerance, which means that every person has a certain level of tolerance and there is no reason why you should believe or force yourself to act otherwise and excruciate yourself to insanity by putting too much pressure because it would make you mentally unstable.

Second, (the following theory was presented to me by The Teacher) the environment around you speaks to you in morse-code, learn to decipher it. If you have been trying and trying and doing all you can but things still won't work; know that the environment is telling you to halt! To take a break, to give it some time, and I have already dedicated half of the post “A Realization” to the importance of time, to giving time it’s due share and the importance of it which concludes to the fact that “time” is required in healing, ripening, and maturing of every phenomenon, person, wound, problem and relationship. If one you have tried everything with absolutely every method and your issue still wouldn’t get anywhere, give the thing some time, maybe that is all it needs, rather all you need to refresh your mind and start looking into thing in a whole new dimension and to be able to see the picture from a whole new perspective which was earlier obscured to you due to mounting tension in your head which didn’t let you concentrate on any other visible side of it.

So to conclude the idea in a nutshell – Do not push yourself beyond your saturation point, it doesn’t prove how strong you are but how insecure you are to share your difficulties, which helps in no way other than complicating matters even further because you can’t do everything on your won, each and every one of us need help; there is a series of reasons why human being is called “social animal”. Also listen to your environment as it speaks to you.

Lastly, unlike the Almighty One and Love; Human beings are “time”, “space” and “distance” bound and there is no denying to it.

(Denial is only a defense mechanism anyway and does not help in any constructive manner.)

Senseless Luv

When you see your beloved smile or hear the sound of their laughter, their mere presence in your time of joy or misery, the warmth of their hug, the fragrance of their skin, the taste of their kiss, feels comfortable; these are simple pleasures of life and Luv, these usual extraordinary comforts are experienced by us owing to the most beautiful wonders that we have been bestowed with, the five senses. These senses help merge the two souls together, and yet a greater Luv is that which is devoid of the five senses, when you still Luv with all your heart and soul without seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting or touching the one you luv. Like the divine Luv, the Luv of the creator. The creator is neither seen, heard, smelt, tasted nor touched but you know, you believe that hes up there, watching over you, happie in your joy and looking out to you in your misery, likewise the luv of a human to another is by all means possible and possible with all the more intensity without the presence of any of the five senses, infact such a luv is greater than the usual on account of the fact that such a luv is free of any greed or lust. Conviction is all it takes.

Agreed that the luv of God shall not be compared to that of the mortals but we’re all the creation of the creator and so do possess a part of him in us “Anā l-Ḥaqq.”

“tu khuda hai aur mera ishq farishton jaisa

Ye bandagi hai sou lazim hai hijaabon main rahain”

Not Enough

Two things that neither matter nor would make an actual difference in life and would never be enough are “knowing” and “wanting”. You may know a million things and you may want even more so, it doesn’t matter, not to anyone and even to yourself, it’s gonna do you no good. If you really know something, if it’s really absorbed in you and you truly want it too, make a move, do something about it, and just procrastinating on the basis of the fact that you know you can do it, doesn’t make it happen because again “knowing is not enough” also I believe “something that can be done at any time will at the end not be done at all” and someone once told me “You may judge yourself all you want on the basis of what you can do but the world is always gonna judge you on what you have done and theres by all odds a difference between the two.”

You may love it to the core, you may want it more than anything in the whole wide world and you may know all too well that you can’t have it, won’t do you any good, because neither knowing that you can’t have it will keep you from wanting it, nor wanting it will let you actually have it and the circle will go on and on until the fate -and trust me fate knows no emotional borders (and just to stay optimistic – optimistic to the limit of foolishness as I call it -still, fate knows no borders at all ;) )- will snatch it away from you with just a blink of those eyes, those glowing, gleaming beautiful eyes of yours, from right under your nose and you would be able to do nothing, absolutely nothing at all regardless of all your knowing and wanting. As the clock ticks, and as this sand of time keeps slipping down my fingers, densing this void inside, the fear, the dread keeps mounting, the fear of losing, losing this amazingness that I’m currently living through, and despite knowing it all, I still want it to the core, and worse, I know theres nothing I can do about it.